The Chase

I had been busy working on a dream of mine since I was seven years old.

I completed my first novel and sent samples of my manuscript to my first set of agents and today, I received my first rejection. At first, I rejoiced at the encouraging words in this letter:

But then, I did more research and arrived at the conclusion that this was a very polite template rejection, and that the lack of concrete feedback, affirming or constructive, was something to be wary of.

The possibilities:

1) My pages did not stand out enough to warrant a request for more pages.

2) My hook was not enough.

3) I had sent the query letter to an agent who didn’t need or want what I had to offer.

So, I’m back to the drawing board. I am rewriting my debut novel to increase the pages and develop my characters further. I am redoing my query letters and more diligently researching my next set of target agents and publishers.

I love what I’m doing. If I can actually make a living out of this, then, facing rejection is a small price to pay. I gotta keep making adjustments, gotta keep the faith.

To anyone else out there, having a tough day—keep at it. You’re not alone! Keep chasing the dream.

Musings on Fat-calling

At least 9 out of 10 times, when told in the Philippine/Filipino setting that you are getting/being “fat” or “big” there is no clear communication of the commenter’s intention e.g. I am letting you know because I’m concerned about your health OR I am sharing my unsolicited observation because I don’t think you’re self aware OR I’ve been through what you’re going through and I’m now about to drop some knowledge on you OR look at my ability to maintain my figure and look at you OR the worst unspoken and most often assumed implication: I think your weight makes you look ugly.

I’ve always felt strongly about this so for those hearing it from me for the first time:

  1. Weight may or may not equate to good health.
  2. Weight is a f—ing outdated way to gauge beauty.
  3. Real weight struggles may have reasons that should be respected: not all reasons are excuses.
  4. Your experience or lack thereof doesn’t make you qualified to give unsolicited advice or make other people feel like s—t.
  5. Before you comment on someone’s weight, ask yourself: Am I really helping? Also: is this really any of my damn business?

Through the years I’ve gotten less and less comments about my weight. Not because I’ve been able to fit people’s standards but more because I don’t want to take sh*t anymore. If you are one of these people still giving away these amazing sh*t comments – please stop. I swear it’s the right thing to do.